Meeting Ashley

We received 8 profile opportunities in the first 2 months. Then nothing for almost 2 months. Then we got called on 12/2/13 about an opportunity. I decided this time that I wouldn't ask as many questions, I wouldn't tell so many people and I wouldn't call to follow-up. I was going to be more non-challant and calm about it. Even though the baby girl is due on my Granny's birthday. So when Shannon called 2 days later saying she had some news that hopefully would make my morning a little bit better (I had a not so great morning for a different reason). She told me that Ashley LOVED our profile and really wanted to meet us. The only concern is that she really would want us to go to doctor appointments with her and she was worried we might not want to drive all the way to Niagara Falls for the appointments. ARE YOU KIDDING ME???!! To have the opportunity to get to know our potential daughter's birthmom prior to birth, and to go to the doctor appointments, hear the heartbeat and maybe even see an ultrasound...and MAYBE even have the opportunity to be at the hospital, maybe even present for the birth - wow. That would be an absolute dream come true for me! So we arranged a time to meet for lunch today. This is a picture of us before we left the house in the morning.

That night I didn't sleep much at all. Last night I slept better. But I got up this morning with a nervous stomach...and hair that wouldn't cooperate. Why is it when I wanna look my best, my hair won't cooperate?! So many thoughts have been going through my head...is this outfit a good choice? Do I look too old? Or too dressy? or too casual? What will she look like? What will she BE like? Will she like us? Will we like her? Is the small present I got for her a good choice (I got her the same butterfly ornnament I bought for us this year)? I could go on and on... And then the BIG question: What if everything goes great and this day is the day we are meeting our daughter's birthmom??!! Our baby girl could be in our presence today at lunch with Ashley. In her belly. I pray no matter what that she is safe and healthy. But if today is this day, what will the next 2.5 months be like? Filled with anxiety and anticipation? I am sure! Yesterday Drew insisted on making a bow barette FOR HIS BABY SISTER.

His teachers wrote "Lil Ms. Tuff" on the pink bow. So sweet. I got tears in my eyes. And then last night he intentionally placed the bow right next to the card and gift box that I set aside for Ashley. He doesn't know who the box and card are for. Or maybe he does?! Wouldn't that be something?! So I have to leave work in 20 minutes to meet Jay and drive to Dunkin Donuts to meet with Ashley (and Sue, the birthparent advocate). Nervous stomach come now or STAY AWAY! I am going to try to fix my hair once again. And put on some lip gloss. And say some prayers.