A reminder....

We have been waiting for a couple days to hear more details about how the meeting with the expectant mom, C, went, and when the next meeting will be. Today we were told that C was struggling with feeling very overwhelmed and the meeting was rough for her. So she wants to take a few weeks before making any decisions. What will her decision be? Will she narrow the families down? Will she want to meet with any of us? Or will she chose one of us then? I don't know. But I do know, that as much as I would LOVE for her to chose us and for this baby girl to be our Butterfly, I know that this isn't really about us right now. Right now, it's about C and her baby. I have had C on my heart since getting the profile call last week. Hearing her background and current situation as well as her desires for a REAL relationship with the adoptive parents she chooses, has opened my heart to her and has made me want to be able to give her what she wants and needs not only for her baby, but also for herself. But, I honestly can say that I want her to make the right decision for her baby and for her, and so I am glad she is taking her time. The wait will not be the easiest for us, but her journey to this decision is a million times harder for her. I will keep her and her baby in my prayers and try to leave our desires out of it. I truely hope she finds what she is looking for in one of the families. Maybe it'll be us, maybe it won't. But if I know anything, I know that things work out the way they should, and this baby will find the family she is meant for. I am sad for C. And as hard as it is to know that on one side of the decision is sorrow and loss, and the other side is celebration and joy, I am glad Jay and I were reminded of her side. It helps put things into perspective a bit better.